Fear

In my dream-y dreamers group, we’re supposed to share our fears…what keeps us from pursuing our dreams, from stepping out.  So, you tell me yours and I’ll tell you mine!

I am afraid of failing. That makes me afraid of trying.  You know, if you don’t try, you don’t fail.  It hurts to try and fail, so if you don’t try…..well, you know.  Let me say this, too.  I have no good reason to be afraid of failing. My children don’t judge me.  My husband doesn’t judge me.   It’s me. I’m pretty hard on myself;) It’s that inner voice that says “Why bother? You know you can’t do that. Who do you think you are?”  Ugh.  (See Monday’s post.)  What?  You thought I was just talking to you?? How do you think I know all about it?

It’s gradually gotten better as I stop worrying about what others think and start finding my acceptance in Jesus.  I did not say church and I did not say christians, I said Jesus.  There’s a difference.  It’s something I’m struggling with right now.  You know, the difference between Jesus and those who claim to follow him.  Yet they really don’t.  It’s a problem.  But don’t worry….it’s not the first faith crisis that I’ve had.  He’s used to it.   I think that’s what’s helping me.  Really studying the person of Jesus and lining up my life with him and the way he lived, rather than religion.  Making changes.  Living differently.  Sometimes  letting some things go.  We all need to do that sometimes.

I read recently that Jesus’ first miracles broke religious rules.  Touching the untouchables, healing those who didn’t “deserve it”, breaking the Sabbath laws.  I wonder why Jesus would do that?  He broke social protocol, talked to Samaritans and prostitutes.  Maybe he wanted to show us that the law wasn’t the most important thing.  He did come to redeem us, after all.  Not just certain people.  (not just those who look like us, act like us, think like us)    Everyone.

Well, this topic took a left turn.  I hope that’s okay!  But if not, I can handle it!;)

 

Cara Box

Time to talk about our Cara boxes! I sent my box to Jenn, my new friend from South Carolina. It was so fun getting to know her.  My box came from the beautiful Laura.  So fun! Definitely check it out at Kaitlyn’s blog.  {that’s 3 blogs you need to take a look at}

Thank you, Laura, for my books! I love them! One for me and one for Julianna:)

IMG_5404OK, ladies……you can do this next month, too. (and you do not have to blog to participate)  It’s fun to encourage someone with a Cara box:) And it’s fun getting your own box in the mail!  We all love mail, right? By the way, Cara means “beloved friend.” Very sweet.

Dear You

I’m a little concerned about some of you.  Some of you do not feel you are enough.  Just you.  Enough.  But you are.  God did not create you to need someone else to make you whole.  You already know that, right? Maybe it’s just me that thinks I need others to make me better.  Now, before you get in a tiff, I know that we need people around us.  I do know that.  I love a good chat, too.  But what if you don’t always have people around? What if you don’t have a ton of friends, don’t have GNOs every week? Aren’t involved in your church, don’t have many girlfriends?  Does that make you less than?  Does that mean you are lacking? No, it does not.

I think if we’re not careful, we start comparing ourselves with others.  She has so many friends….she’s always doing fun stuff….she has the best job….I wish I was like her.  I wish I was like her.  Not like me.  Girls, ladies–this is not of God. Don’t compare yourself to others. Please don’t.  I know it creeps in on us, but it’s not healthy.   I know that we set high standards for ourselves.  We sometimes fail to support our sisters, each other.  We secretly are glad when “she” doesn’t get the promotion. We secretly are glad when “her” kids stay in trouble.   It makes us feel better about ourselves.  Because we don’t think we are enough.

Time to let it go, dear. Quit giving her and yourself a hard time.  Fear is not of God.  Guilt is not of God.  Perfectionism is not of God.  Grace is of God.  From God.  Be gracious to yourself. It’s not only for others, it’s for you, too. Because you are enough.

Hello:)

It’s been a few days since I posted anything.  I’ll give you a quick update on what’s up with us…

Caleb is turning 12 in about 2 weeks.  OLD is how I feel.  As a birthday gift, he will be getting braces.  Happy birthday to him!

I’ve been out of town for 2 days at Created for Care, a conference for adoptive mamas.  I enjoyed it, met a few friends from Facebook (it’s always nice to meet people in real life!) roomed with some girls (mamas, actually) about 15 years younger than me…..OLD again.  When I got back, I hugged the boys and told them I missed them.  (can you guess what’s coming?)  Jacob said, “mmhmm, I don’t know why, but I didn’t miss you. Are you mad?” NOPE! He keeps me laughing! He was trying to figure out why he didn’t miss me:) I told him I was glad they had fun over their boy weekend.  (Caleb did miss me, though, so he’s my favorite.)

Sean painted Julianna’s room this weekend. We’ll get it finished up this week. I’ll show you a picture when we’re done.  Fun!!

We are in fundraising mode, so just know it! We have to finish paying all of our various fees over the next several weeks, so we’re planning a few easy fundraisers over the next month or so. Thanks for your support!!!

I watched a few videos of Julianna from September and she said “hey, bye, thank you” She’s just so cute!! Ahhh, I’m so ready for her to be home.  We all are!

I’m almost done with my book by Rachel Held Evans. (A Year of Biblical Womanhood) I’m sad that I’m going to be finished with it soon.  It looks at how Jewish women were depicted (and their stories) in the old testament and compares it to modern traditions in various religions.  It’s very thought provoking and I like that. When I finish, I’ll tell you about it.

Okay, that’s it. Nothing majorly exciting going on around here.  And that’s a good thing!

Putting The Pieces Together…

Hi all! Here is how a Puzzle Piece Fundraiser works:

•We are asking for a $10 donation for each puzzle piece.
You can donate for more than one piece if you would like (2 pieces=$20, 5 pieces= $50). The puzzle has a total of 252 pieces, so when we have the puzzle together a total of $2520.00 will go towards the costs of Julianna’s adoption. Thank you!Image

Time To Share

Thanks for stopping by!  It’s Tuesday, so it’s time to chat.  I’ll wait while you get your coffee. (or hot chocolate)  Ok….welcome back:)

Let’s talk about our dreams.  Goals, plans.  What do you think? Have you thought about what it may be? Holley has encouraged us to start small. (remember, we’re linking up every week!)  Baby steps. Can you take one step toward a new goal? A big dream? A small change? I know you can. Holley’s e book“Do What You Can” Plan may be something that can help you get started.  Seriously-it’s good. It will help you focus in on what you were created for.

I’ve made the arrangements for my conference.  (Created 4 Care)  I’ve worked on a few personal goals.  (hey, they’re personal!)  I’m steadily working towards my adoption….that’s a never ending process these days! I’m attempting to organize my time and energy…..focus it on my specific {dreams}.  You know….stuff.  Something.  Anything except nothing.

You can do it, too.  Shoot me an email if you need a cheerleader.  Sometimes it helps to share your thoughts (goals, plans, dreams) with someone else.  To say it out loud to someone else.

Much love to you today.  Enjoy the rest of your coffee!-TG

Dear Caleb

My favorite things about you….I’ll just pick a few.

You’re smart, hilarious, creative, a thinker, sensitive, compassionate, stubborn, a Daddy’s boy, the best big brother ever, kind, honest, caring.  And a good dancer.

I love that you’ve always thought for yourself.  Don’t stop.

You’re super creative and want to live an adventurous life.  Don’t change.

You are your own person…always have been.  You’re the old soul of our family.

You made me a mother…are Jacob’s “best brother” and still a Daddy’s boy.

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Love you bunches, Caleb P!

Goals

Well, I’m not doing very well with my goals for this year.  (notice I did not say resolutions)   I blame it on the rain.  And the cold. I mean, I can’t go walking if it’s cold and raining.  And if it’s raining I have to stay inside.  That makes me want to eat.  Junk.  If I’m eating {junk} then I can’t read-I don’t want to mess up my books! Definitely the rain’s fault. (said in a whiny voice)  Oh, and I drink way too much coffee in the winter, too.  O well.  There’s always next week, right?   (I think I should write a children’s book….sorta like the reverse of If You Give A Moose A Muffin!)

Shopping, anyone?

 She Does Justice                                                              She Does Justice is a very cool site that you need to check out.  They make/sell handmade products to support various ministries and causes, including our adoption!  See the button over there to the right? Click it and shop their store and we’ll 25% of the sale. It’s a win-win-win. You win by getting a beautiful scarf, print, bracelet….they win because you’re supporting their efforts and we win because they’ll send us a check to help with our adoption expenses.  Yayyy!!

Here’s more about Megan….the founder (and fellow adoptive mama!!!!)

I am a wife. A mother of four. A lover of Jesus.

I love to plan. I love to create. I believe in the importance of community.

I am an advocate for orphans and for the poor.

I want every single person to know that they are loved and important.

I aim to act justly. To love mercy. And to walk humbly.

When we started the process of adopting our daughter from Africa, I started selling handmade items as a fundraiser. The shop was far more successful than we ever anticipated and have watched it continue to grow.

I want to share my passions. My passion for life. And family. And Jesus. And justice.

Act Justly. Love Mercy. Walk humbly. Micah 6:8

Okay, you may shop now!-TG

PSOur Zoe Clothing Fundraiser is underway through Jan. 31st, too!

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Guess what?!  Sean was able to see Julianna yesterday! And, thanks to Skype, so was I!  He took her a birthday cake because she is turning 3 next week.

Image She is such a cutie with lots of personality! She showed up in a velvet dress because she loves to dress up.   It is so obvious that she is well loved by her “aunts” and other care takers.  That is a huge blessing to us.

So, this is what we know……she loves to eat, thinks everything is hers, has lots of spunk, and has made lots of improvements with her speech, etc.  We still don’t know a date that we’ll bring her home, but we do anticipate spring.  Come on, spring!!!

Here ya go!  A bit of sweetness for you…

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What do you think?  Any hope for him?